July 2009
i think..
i think i’ve decided this might be the best way to get it out, all these stupid feelings need words to speak them, eyes to reach them. i want to tell you I’m sorry i never met you the way i always dreamed. i want you to know you inspired me to reach farther than most ever would, you taught me how beautiful the world is, how beautiful i could be, and how beautiful, loving, kind, caring,...
why, oh why...
sometimes i think im just thinking too much
or caring too much
or wishing too much
im not sure which one it is
or if all
or maybe none
but its something inside me
bursting out
troubled by the sadness
and regret
im always so content
so happy
so calm
inside my own head
the place where good dreams
and ideas
and thoughts float to make me whole
and full of careful reality
but every...
June 2009
its kinda funny how...
at a good concert,
the people of that town
feel pretty damn special to have this going on
and its interesting
when the band yells “thank you, you guys were wonderful”
or what have you
whether sincere or not
we believe we were the best audience in world at that moment
because were having one of the
happiest moments of our lives
thank you so much you beautiful, beautiful...
nonsense
sometimes it never really made sense anyway
it was just nonsense,
the way good nonsense should always be to someone
light and easy to look through
and around as though it was never made up of anything more
than perhaps a whim of dreams and star dust
though in the end we a all made of the same things
nothing really keeps the old and the new from
coming together
and while that seems like...
sooo
i need about $120
quite soon
to partake in some very wonderful things
and im not talking stupid things
like movies
and dinner
and such
i mean important
life changing things
and no im not exaggerating
only…
i know i wont get $120
in enough time
as i dont have a job
or any kind of money income what-so-ever
and am having the damnedest time finding a job
of any kind or size
so...
“Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it...”
– Oogway, Kung Fu Panda
my skin is freezing
but my hands are burning hot
oh hunny, you havent seen this town till youve...
i seriously need some espèces
(cash)
for some new clothes
ive had these same damned clothes for yearsss
and i hate looking like a high-schooler
when im definitely nottt anymore
i am
a tiiiny bit sad
that when my birthday comes this month
nothing exciting that i want to happen will happen
i must be a nice person
and do something my friend wants to do
“in honor of my birthday” the day before
and wants me to come just because she pry would be bored anyways
and i dont even want to go to this because it isnt what i like to spend my day doing
and even if...
omfg
food blogs are just amazing<3
haha
people who dont like cooking and baking
could never understand the beauty of it all PS.PS.PS.
i love 3OH!3 they make me feel like its truly summer when i listen to them
and it feels goodddddd to be single with their music playin ;]
anyone understanding where im coming from?
so i noticed while looking in the mirror
that, yes, my hair does look fine short
and im not talking cropped short
but nearly at the jaw short
thank you to a daring decision to chop it all off one day
because i was bored of it
but now i must defeat one of my biggest loves
(the love of change)
and grow my hair long, long, long
ive been meaning too have it very long
for sooo many years
but i just cannot deal with the amount of...
wow
i woke up to
23 new pages
of posts from you guys
haha well i gotta get all ready to drive somewhere and btw, does it feel like saturday already to anyone else?
it has been said
that in this life
we must be strong
we must learn to let go of the things we love most in the world
so that when they are gone
we shall still be able to live
i stood, drinking some green tea
and pondered this idea
when i decided that the thing that means most to me
is you
and shall always be for the rest of life itself
until of the universes eternal end
and the next universe’s
...
i need to
pick up another hobby
so that when i get writers block
i still have something to do instead of laze about
all day :/
i have a lot of hobbies
but most need money to buy stuff to do them
and i am broke
so i need an new inexpensive hobby
any ideas for me?
hello,
oh why yes i am watching
“Robin Hood: Men in Tights”
and as a matter of fact
i love it and laugh at it every time i see it
thank you very much
phone calls
at 10.30 at night
when ive been sick for over 3 weeks
and its been a miserably hot day
and my head hurts to hell
not to mention im off to an early bed
had better be of life and death
or probably of mice and men
perhaps you had better be telling me the thing
im WAITING for you to tell me personally
but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
youre asking for SOMETHING
asfdkshdfkjshdkfhks
FU.
kaythanks
i have every light in my house on
because in need to vacuum every little bit
since ive been lazy and sick for too long
and when i say vacuum
i mean also sucking up any spiders i find
since i just found one and killed it
and im sure ill find more around here
yuck
i have a feeling
that i am going to fall asleep in a fit of exhastion tonight
with papers, books and journals spread upon my bed
a laptop blaring at me to continue my work
my phone blinking at me to answer
and a head full of tangled ideas
sleep can only come so soon
i think
im too hard on myself 24/7
“As Harold took a bite of Bavarian sugar cookie, he finally felt as if everything...”
– Kay Eiffel, Stranger Than Fiction
According to Greek mythology, humans were...
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this is a very darling thought.
i cannot
just stick to one thing
for days at a time
for weeks at a time
for months, years, decades
at a time
i need change
i love change
i want change
it is new
it is exciting
it is fresh
it is renewing
it is my souls thirst
i believe
sleeping is in order
to restore my sickened head
to refresh my weary thoughts
not to mention restore my unbridled doubts
oh poor pages i never finished
ideas that never came to
bonne nuit mon peu merveille
i tend to work much better
with my hair tied up out of my face
like a certain Violet Baudelaire
though i have no pretty hair ribbons
like herself
sometimes i get so excited
that i cannot breathe
and im okay with it
that nothing can take me away from that happiness
and im in love with it
that when i get my breath back the only sound i make is a high pitched giggle
and i adore it
that the only feeling that comes back to me is goosebumps
and i think thats the best feeling
these 8 pages
are atm only reaching
a paragraph and a half there is a difference between
knowing just what to write
and finding the perfect words
